that's its been more then a year since my last journal. I have been going through some issues with depression which have taken away any drive I had for creating art, writing or anything productive. It annoys me how many people do not understand what depression really is. Yes, there is some that is due to a horrible event that happened but that one can be overcome. That is not what I am talking about.
The one that I have is one that is started by lacking or having to much of a certain chemical in my brain(I forget which it is)  and is genetic. I got jilted when it comes to my genes. I cannot just stop having depression with just lifting my head or trying a brave front. It is not laziness that kept me from unable to get out of bed or eat. Depression is something I will have to deal with to the day I die and not something I can stop having. I can just numb it with cocktail of pills, but one day these could stop working. Then I will have to go through the trails and errors of finding ones that work again.
It also amazes me about the number of drugs for it that is out for depression and how some can make it worse (very worse believe me), while others are able to fix it.
I am glad that most of the people around me understand and help me through my issues by being there like and just to name a few.
I am finally able to get back to my art and writing. Also get my life back together. The first things I am working on is my fanfictions and other writings. It will take me a little bit till I start updating again but I will.